Excitement in the air!!!!

Today we drove to St Louis to wrap up our third and final meeting with our adoption worker.

YES!

That's what I said.

We are applying for adoption again!!!!!!

Recap: Last year we had 5 failed insemination's, failed in-vitro and 3 failed surrogacies.

We were tapped out emotionally, financially, physically...and before the Holiday's approached we decided to take a break from our infertility woes.

Well, the Holiday's came and went. It felt good to just relax and for ONCE not stress, think, or have a plan of action. We just existed.

Of course, no miraculous pregnancy occurred, and as the new year commenced we got the itch for things again.

Can ya blame us!!??

It's in our blood.

We're fighters.

We've dealt with years of planning and years of waiting and despite all the heartache and let down we still have HOPE and PEACE because we HAVE experienced a miracle and know it can happen again.

We know that pain is part of the process for us, but the shining truth is...

IT'S WORTH IT!

We want to adopt again and these past few months we've felt it's the path we should traverse.

*We spent our tax return on the adoption fee before we even got it.

*We filled out the tedious amounts of paperwork and put in our hours of study.

*We've met the requirements.

*We've been on our knees in humble prayer.

How long does it take to surrender one's dreams in favor of God's will?

Through our flight we've developed steadfast faith in the journey. Adoption is our dream and we have gratitude beyond expression for such a gift given.

We've softened our hearts and willingly opened them in vulnerability once again, ready to face unbearable fear and haunting doubts interspersed with glimpses of

HOPE!

Although there are no guarantees, there is one possibility that

every conceivable outcome of our journey CAN be envisioned!

Adoption is the most beautiful miracle.

So much love exudes from adoption. It's pure and true because none of the people involved are as concerned about themselves as they are for one precious baby. In one unparallelled moment the miracle occurs.

Do all children who come to this earthly home get to feel such overwhelming love?

Next week our profiles will be submitted, we will be "live" on-line and our profiles "in the books!" Now the searching and waiting begins!!

We must be pro-active in this process now. We have to, in a sense, "advertise" ourselves. This can be an awkward occurrence, and it's hard to envision we have "competition"...but I know that the Lord works miracles and if there is another baby that is supposed to come to our family, s/he will. We just have to put the process in motion!

WE NEED YOU!

Tanner's adoption occurred through spiritual attunement of people who were willing to advocate for us. They were the missing links we couldn't provide for ourselves. This time YOU could be the link that connects our family puzzle. We ask that all of our family and friends at this time PLEASE think of us, mention us in conversation with YOUR friends and family because chances are you or they WILL KNOW of a potential birth mother that could be carrying our child!

Talk about us at the movies, talk about us at dinner, talk about us anytime!!!!!

This is the time we want gossip to spread like WILDFIRE!

We are excited, anxious and so grateful! We pray that our Heavenly Father will guide us through this process. We know that He is in control and with Him all things are possible!

(We are going through LDS Family Services. If any of you know of a potential birth mother you can contact us and we will give you the contact info for her to go through our agency!)