I'm so grateful for blogging.
I think you all would agree with me!
We all blog, for some reason or another...because we personally get something out of it!
I love my new friends.
I love the immeasurable vastness of it...
I'm grateful for the support I receive through it.
(thank you all for your kind words)
I love the entertainment value.
I'm thankful so many people put it out there for all to see...
Thank you for sharing your life with me.
Thank you for your examples.
As you all read my blog, you see I am
happy and I love my life.
You also see I am
sad, and I struggle with my trials.
WE ALL HAVE GOOD AND BAD
that we trudge through day after day.
Some people convey only the good on their blogs. Some people convey only the bad.
I don't think I have a focus.
I blog my life.
I do not brag that I have the best life, nor complain that I have the worst life.
People have much more than me...and some people have it much harder than me.
I am me.
I hope I didn't seem whiny in these past few posts.
I only want to share my tribulations because
(it's therapeutic in ways, and releasing steam is essential so my head doesn't explode)
I believe I am constantly learning in this mortal existence, and maybe someone else can gain some insight for themselves as they see me battle through my personal growth spurts.
(and not that I am a great example by any means, but because I am trying)
I know for me that is how I have learned...watching people in their experiences of life.
The sadness in my life stings while I endure, but my blessings far outweigh that sadness.
I have
SO MUCH.
I could make this post a mile long listing all the blessings that I have.
I just want to say that I recognize my blessings. I am not an ungrateful person.
I wonder if some people might think I am asking for a lot when I seem to have so much already.
I only ask for a desire that is inborn in me.
After that...nothing more.
I have an amazing husband, a beautiful angelic son, health and strength, a supportive family,
the gospel of Jesus Christ.
(I'll stop here because I told you the list is too long!)
I am so grateful for my life!!!!
I'm so grateful I've had the opportunity to marry a respectful, honorable, fabulous, handsome man, who is my eternal companion.
I'm so grateful I am a mother. I love Tanner more than anything and would never trade him, even if I was told I could have 10 biological children.
Never. Never. Never.
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My infertility has brought me one of my
greatest blessings ever.
TANNER.
This post kind of wound up differently than I imagined...it was supposed to be a happy birthday post to Tanner. Sorry it was lengthy and wordy. My heart overrides my brain sometimes.
Anywho.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANNER.
You are a miracle in our lives. I could make this post even doubly long telling you exactly what you mean to me...but I hope you ALWAYS know I love you more than my heart has room for and I would do anything for you!
I love your birth-mom and thank her everyday for giving me the piece of my heart that was missing for so long.
This day we were sealed for eternity together,
but long before that in our hearts was forever!
too cute for words
22 comments:
Happy 4 Tanner!! I hope you have a wonderful birthday, turning 4 is very big!!
Jill,
Thank you for blogging your life, you make us all cry, laugh, and get fun stuff. Good job mommy!! Keep up the good blogs and the cute pic's of the family.
Happy Birthday Tanner!! What a cute boy you are!
I am so grateful for you blog!! I love reading it and "knowing" you through it! I am so sad about your trails right now, but I am thinking and praying for you and your family!
Happy birthday Tanner. He has been a joy in all of our lives but especially yours!!
Thanks for having a blog--I'm glad I found you--I love your words!
Have a fun birthday Tanner!!
Happy Birthday Tanner!
Isn't blogging amazing? I am so grateful for it because it is an outlet. A place for us to go and have a social life without leaving the house. ;) A place where we know we have friends that care.
Happy 4th Tanner!
Blogging is therapy-- whether you are writing or reading...
Happy Birthday Tanner!! He is such a cute little boy and you are so lucky!
I really loved this post. Your feelings are like my feelings when it comes to blogs and it is nice to know someone feels the same way as I do.
I admire you for putting yourself out there and being honest about your life! :)
Jill, I am so glad I got to meet you. I know I don't know you very well, but you are such a sweet and special person. You are an amazing daughter of God. I am so thankful I got to meet you! I know you are going through your trials, but you are so amazing and my prayers are with you. I know you will be blessed. You are an amazing mom and you inspire me through your strength!
Happy Birthday Tanner!
Happy Birthday Tanner! I love blogging too...I'm grateful for the friends I have met :) You are a great example to me.
Happy Birthday, Tanner!
And I don't think any of your posts have sounded whiny, Jill. I can tell how much love you have for Tanner, and any child would be lucky to call you Mom! That said, there's nothing wrong with your desire to have a biological child! I truly hope that one day (really really soon!) you'll be able to do that.
And I agree 100% that blogging is therapeutic and besides, it's your blog! You get to say whatever you want! You're an amazing person and I've really enjoyed getting to know you better here. It's like a little present every time I look at my google reader and see, "oh look! jill post something new!"
Alright I'm done writing my book of a comment. :)
Aww, we love you. Good and bad. :)I think it is great that you share your feelings via blog because there ARE people out there who want to hear it, and who it helps. I think it is great. We all feel for your desire to have children.. Especially since you are such a wonderful mother. :)
Oh Happy Birthday Tanner! 4 years old--how exciting! It seems like the time goes by SO fast doesn't it?!
By the way, I LOVE reading your blog because I feel like I totally 'get you'. You are such a fun girl, and I appreciate the insights that you share through your blog. Keep it going!
Happy birthday tanner he is so cute! And yes my infertility has brought me three wonderful blessings too and hopefully someday soon another one!! We are lucky aren't we!! Your a great mom!
I love your blog too !! You are so good at it and make us laugh cry and live along beside you! ttys
Jill..you are so honest and real. I love the way you count your blessings even as your heart breaks. Tanner is adorable and one lucky boy! Hope he has a very happy day.
Love this post. I'm so glad you blog too!
Happy birthday Tanner! You sure have one heck of a mom.
Jill, I just read a lot of your comments, and saw the cute pictures of your sisters pregnant. I love you Jill!
Hey there. I'm sorry I haven't been looking at anyone else's blogs lately. Thanks for commenting. It's fun keeping in contact.
I just read the last few of your entries and I am SOOOO sorry. I can't imagine what you're feeling but I am so sad that you want to have babies on your own and haven't been able to yet. I wish I could take away your sadness.
Happy Birthday to Tanner. He looks like such a sweetie! He looks like he biologically yours too.
I just realized I posted under Jason's name. Sorry..it's me, Kamie
Cna you believe we've got 4 year olds? He is just so cute! I'm glad you blog, too! It's been so great to get in touch with old friends and to stay connected! I love it!
He's so darling! I'm glad you have him...forever!
That was an amazing post. I absolutely love reading your blog. I think you do a great job of balancing the good and the bad in life. Everyone needs to vent at times, but you still realize all the great things you do have. That makes you the incredible person you are!!
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