Beautiful people

These kids are the most beautiful things in the world to me.

And I don't mean just their physical appearances, which they each just happen to be strikingly gorgeous, but their spirits and personalities too.

I feel like such a spaz when people tell me my children are beautiful and I reply, "I KNOW!" But that's truly how I feel too!! And of course I thank them :)

Bryelle is three months old now and is just the sweetest little angel.  The second she wakes up her face is plastered with a smile.  It completely melts my heart.  She wants to engage and connect already!  At such a young age, she see's her family and has enough awareness to reciprocate affection and you can see the attachment process growing!!

We all completely love and adore this sweet princess.  She belongs in this family and we are so thankful we have her!!  It's funny how you don't realize you need something until it's placed right in front of you!

Sometimes I wonder what planet Kambrie came from.  She can be so frustrating, makes us want to pull our hair out, and more than often just leaves me completely and utterly stumped.  I just don't know what to do with her sometimes.  I feel like such a failure and so helpless.  But yet she has such a sweet heart and a soft side that you can not help but absolutely love this girl!

She has the face of an angel and is so smart!!  She is going to do BIG things.  I can't wait to see the future unfold in her life.  She is constant entertainment and she looooves her "precious Bryelle."  She looks up to her big brother and wants to do everything he does.

She is one of a kind!

Tanner is pure love.  I'm surprised his heart even fits in that tiny body, because it is so huge!!  He is always considerate of others feelings.  He loves big!!  He is still a momma's boy and isn't afraid to show it.  He loves his daddy time too.

He is head over heals for Bryelle and always begs Kambrie to play with him!

He is the best big brother a girl could ask for.

He has a genius mind.  He is sooooo creative and so artistic.  He was definitely blessed with that talent and continues to grow and strengthen his abilities.

He is the glue of our family in so many ways.  Oh how we love our Tan the man!

trying to keep up

I keep waiting for life to slow down, so I can catch up. 

I think I finally realized that is NEVER going to happen!  I need to set some priorities.  I feel so disorganized and want to feel peace and direction!

I get overwhelmed at times thinking I need to document every piece of my children's lives.  But in reality, they aren't going to remember all these little details like I think they might.  I have about 3 scrapbooks of my entire life.  I already have 3 HUGE books of Kambrie's life...I don't need to feel the stress of capturing every playdate at the park, or ice cream cone smothered face...even though I think it's adorable and something I PERSONALLY want to remember...the things that last and matter are being written on our hearts, not necessarily these pages.

More than wanting my kids to look back at pictures and see how much fun we had, I want them to FEEL how loved they are and that our family moments are special. 

I hope and pray that these things are being written in their hearts more than being plastered images on this page.

Our kids are our world!  They give me purpose and direction.  I feel like I need them more than they need me!  They teach me so much.  I'm so thankful I get to be their mom.  I don't know

why I got so lucky but I don't want to let them down.

   

She thinks he's funny!

These pictures are so precious 

they don't need captions!

*2 months old
*just finished eating
*laughing as daddy asks "Whose your daddy!?" 

the $125 photoshoot

that was priceless!

 

These images above are so precious to me!  

They are just gorgeous and completely capture the angelic state of Bryelle!   These will be cherished forever.

 Above is a "behind the scene" shot of how Melissa did this photo shoot.  She is amazing!  Every time we go to Utah we have her do our pictures.  It was fun to see how she does the babies, and it's just right in the convenience of her living room.  She had adorable background drops and the magic key was using a hair dryer!  DUH!  The noise and the warmth lured Bree right to sleep and made snapping some quick shots possible!!

I'm glad mom was there too.  It was a 2 man show for sure...her holding the hair dryer and me propping Bree's bum, head, or arms.  It was a fun event and the outcome was totally worth it!

That photoshoot was taken back in Nov.  The weekend of the 14-18th I got to bring Bryelle back home (aka Utah) with me to meet some of her fam.

I was originally supposed to just go by myself!

Clear back, long before all this baby business, Landon had surprised me with a flight to Utah for that weekend as a birthday gift.  I was so excited to escape and just have some girl time.  I already had plans of shopping, sleeping, seeing my sisters new house and attending the spa with her...THEN, dum da da dah...we got news that a baby was entering our world!!

Long story short, I wasn't going to go at all, but Landon convinced me to still go, AND TAKE BREE!  So at 10 days old, Bryelle and I flew to Utah and enjoyed a fabulous weekend, sans spa.

(she was so great on the flights.  I had her tucked into my wrap and the stewardists didn't even know I had a baby on my belly until both flights ended.  it was hilarious.  even the girl sitting RIGHT NEXT to me didn't know.  she thought I just had a big blanket on.  Bree never made a peep, so it was quite comical)

So we conspired and planned it perfectly...Gma Heidi was able to come out when she was born and spend a week with us, and then fly back home, on the same flight that I was flying too!  It worked out perfectly.  Back in Utah Bryelle got to spend time with Gma Heidi again and meet Gpa Barry.  She met some of my sisters and many adoring cousins.  She already had a fan club lined up and ready!

 Gma and Gpa were so helpful and eager to love on their new grandbaby.  She has definitely been swooned by all!!

 

 Brooke and Savanna thought she was the cutest thing ever!  

I'm not sure if Bryelle was ever out of anyone's arms that whole weekend!

Then I was excited to surprise Gma Jan!  

I arranged with her husband, Gpa Doug, to make a surprise visit.  She was so glad to meet Bryelle!  Gma Jan just recently got diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer.  She finished chemo and had testing done to still find out there was cancer in her lymph nodes.  We are so heart broken by this news and continue to pray for her healing and recovery.  Time will tell what the future brings, but we love Gma Jan and her contagious laugh and bright spirit.  I'm so thankful we were able to spend some time together!

 It was an awesome get-away, and it's always fun to show off a new beautiful baby!!  I'm so glad Landon allowed me to still go and am thankful for our wonderful family who is always so accepting and loving of our new additions into the family.  We are so blessed!