
I haven't been working in my profession (RN) for a year and a half now.
It's been AWESOME.
At first it was weird and I missed it because I have always worked
(since I was 15 years old).
Actually, let me re-phrase that...I am STILL working!!
I've just switched fields:
My new job happens to be the hardest job I've ever had as MOTHER,
exploring green pastures and walking through clover fields...
so I'm currently on hold (for an undetermined amount of time) in the nursing field!
There are some things I do miss:
friends
the social aspect
holding and loving the sweet babies (NICU and Well baby)
getting a paycheck
having an outlet
girl talk
treats all night...
but I don't miss leaving my precious boys. I hated having to say good-bye 3-4 times a night so I could work the graveyard shift (Landon and I wanted one of us at home with Tanner while the other worked), and then coming home in the early hours of the morning and forcing myself to stay awake for another 12 hours so I could "pretend to be a good mom."
Graveyard shifts and motherhood don't jive.
I mentioned I missed the girl talk at night. Graveyards give more opportunities to shoot the breeze with co-workers than a day shift does...so there were always runs for take-out food, occasional movies, yummy treats, lots of DP to help keep us awake, and usually bashing of husbands in our late night gossip sessions.
BUT.
I never participated in those bashing sessions.
EVER.
Some of the nurses I worked with were horrible. They were horrible wives, had horribles husbands, and told horrible stories. I hated when those conversations came up because I felt so uncomfortable. I didn't want to participate...and furthermore,
I COULDN'T.
I had no bones to throw to those salivating dogs!
You know...once someone starts they each want the next person to jump in and tell how bad they have it as well.
Who could top the other with how bad their marriage was.
Who got the most sympathy votes.
It was pathetic.
I would just sit there and listen with absolutely no reply. OR. If I could (we are supposed to stay in the room with the babies, so I couldn't just get up and leave my patients) I would leave.
Why wouldn't I participate you might ask?
(but that shouldn't even be a question)
1. Because I don't believe in publicly bashing on my husband! If I have a problem with him, that is OUR problem. I'm not a hugely private person (obviously, my blog isn't private), but some things need to be kept in and only between a husband and wife.
I respect my husband enough to keep whatever issues we have, private.
2. Because I have nothing awful to say about my husband anyways!
I can't complain that he doesn't do the laundry-because he does.
I can't whine about how he cheats on me-because he doesn't.
I can't cry about how he yells and calls me names-because he doesn't.
I can't argue about his laziness-because he isn't.
I can't yell that he never brings me flowers-because he DOES...

every month!
I know my husband is not perfect...but at least he is trying.
Thank you babe.
I love you!